Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Cherish.

I have very vivid memories from my childhood of my mother kneeling by the living room couch. Now I know why she was there. She was praying for us. I know because this morning I felt the call of my own living room couch. As I was speaking with my Heavenly Father, I felt this tiny body climb up on the couch & put her face right by mine. When she saw that I was crying, she patted my cheek & gave me a kiss. Oh, how I love her. I only hope & pray that I can be all that she deserves. I know that having a toddler will be nothing compared to the school years. Then those will be nothing to having a teenager. Then, when she's grown, I know that I will wish to have every single moment back. So, for now, I'm going to do my best, learn all I can, and rely on my Savior. Because I know I won't be able to have those little arms around my neck forever and I don't want to miss a single minute.

I love you my little peanut. Thank you for being mine.


P.S. To my amazing friends & family, thank you all for your kind words, wise advice, and most of all inspiring examples. I appreciate every last one of you.

6 comments:

Kaarina said...

Thanks Sam, your post was exactly what I needed to be reminded of today...

Rob and Tiff said...

What a sweet post. Thank you for being willing to share your feelings with the rest of us. I only hope I will have the same kind of patience and love for the children I will have one day. Hang in there and know that many of us adore you.

Jer, Er and kids said...

Those are the moments that definitely make the difficult ones fade, and that make all you are doing worth while. They are the ones that remind me of the great love I have for my kids but also that they have for me regardless of the mistakes I make. What a sweet moment you are smart to document it! we sure miss you guys and want to see you very soon!

Tammy said...

Oh Sam, my heart breaks for you. I know we chatted a bit at snowbird but I wanted to tell you this... I see how you are with Hollie and you are an incredible mom. I seriously watch you and anyone can tell how much this little girl means to you. Everyone mom has those moments where you doubt what you are doing and if you do things right. Every MOM does.I think that is because every child is so different than the next. Even those we want to clone for our next child have days that thier mom's feel as you have! You are a great example to me on the right things to do to help feel better. This post proves that. Thank you for being not only an example to me but to your sweet daughter. She too is going to grow up and remmeber seeing you kneeling at the couch as you remember your mom doing for you!! On those days when you feel like everything is wrong pull up your blog and look at the days that they didn't feel wrong. Heavenly Father trusts, and knows that you are the best mom! You are amazing!

mommyoffour said...

You two girls are so dang cute! I love this picture!

I too want to thank you for the reminder. Time does fly and there will be a day that we wish we could go back to this time in our lives. I've been thinking that a lot with each of my kids lately and they are still young. It all goes by so quickly, so we need to enjoy the moment while we are in it.

We missed you tonight, I hope that all is well with your little family.

Kim said...

She is getting so big, and I just noticed how much she looks like boy Sam. Love you...glad you are feeling on top again.